Fight is over.
We also gave each other a night of fun. Going out together has been very scarce lately, but so refreshing when we do it. I wish we could go back to how we were, but it does not make me nervous. If he walks the right road, it will come in time. If he does not fix this problem then I won’t want to go back anyway.
I like the fact that we can still have fun. I like the fact that we don’t have to be all over each other after a huge fight. The way ups and way downs make me ill when they happen so close together. I don’t like roller coasters.
But that’s what I ride as I go through my week. I have been better at reading him and his mood. I can tell when he will be getting drunk so at least now I can prepare myself for it. Much like the ticking sound you hear on your climb up that first peak before your car goes swooping to the bottom of the track.
But tonight was easy and light. Tonight was laughing and “Oh, look at that!” Sometimes I forget that we can really have fun together.